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[24 Aug 2008|02:24am] |
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I'm pretty much hating life right now. So I'm choosing only to visit once in a while and getting really involved in games and things instead..I just get this odd feeling that I'm not going anywhere, that I should be trying harder and just can't find the energy to do it. The only thing that makes me happy anymore and makes me smile is power rangers. specifically geki and deka. I've got LARP this weekend, maybe I'll feel better after that. I don't know.
My ex keeps trying to fucking IM me. I really don't want to get involved with her AT ALL. I'm not even at a place where we can be friends yet. Because she basically ruined it. I'm not comfortable enough to be her friend, to be anything because I think part of me still might love her even though she magically decided she wanted a boyfriend instead. *headdesk* Time to go rot my teeth and watch some rangers.
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[14 Jul 2008|07:42pm] |
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Jan Jan Go My Way[gekiranger] |
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okay life, time to stop failing. *nod* D=
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[28 Jun 2008|12:41am] |
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MISS YOU LONG TIME ♥ Andros is in his corner being angry with me because I haven't had time to let him play, he wants to watch Zhane eat browinies for some reason..o.O; After the 6th of July I'll be around. Rly. ♥ Zhaaaneeee I plan on spamming you're IM tomorrow if I can sneak on before work. God I've been busy *woe*. I fail. I missed the last two power rangers Jungle Fury and now I'm about to miss the fourth of July power rangers marathon and won't even be around to record it *hopeful eyes* somebody watch it and tell me it was good?~
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[17 Jun 2008|08:53pm] |
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Kaitou Saint Tail [Junshin] |
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I try to have a good week and everythings sort of working out and then dad comes along to slaughter and destroy it with another note the way he often does. Yeah I didn't get my transcripts but no I didn't lie about them. I ordered them I just didn't want to go over them with him because I already saw the school counselor instead. Suddenly I'm a terrible person and lie about everything apparently. I...seriously hate it here. Dad wonders why I don't talk to him, and this would be it. We're just too different. He's all strict and school and I'm just not into it. To him the only thing that matters is grades and numbers and if I don't get it he threatens to throw me out then wonders why I don't just talk to him. Gee uh because you'll throw me out? Just..fuck it.
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[16 Jun 2008|12:29am] |
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Clamp in WONDERLAND[ Anata Dake no wonderland] |
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Hm...I'd really like my Dekaranger costume now. AX is in...about two weeks. Starting to panic a little. Bad day today...It should have fully been awesome, but I'm stupid and made it bad. I found 60 bucks cash on the ground outside. I turned it in (why do I do such nice things for a job that I loathe? ) Knowing the office is probably going to keep it makes it worse. I'm such an idiot. Total blond moment, I'm gonna go in tomorrow and ask if theres a policy on unclaimed cash or something. :/
Got off early-that was nice I guess, cause I was in a bad mood and didn't want to be there. And it was only 4 hours. Oh noes they'll survive without me.
Went to have lunch at the beach with Lexi, that was fun at least..but she's moving in 45 days so that's a little depressing to know. ._.
Found my wallet at the movie theater- money still inside it and everything. Credit cards, cash even. Heh so I guess me turning in that money earlier was sorta good karma for someone not to steal my money.
Came home, and the night got better. Sorta...I got to play with Sky again tonight. I'm just loving her to death. ♥ Sky/Bridge is just win and cute. Finished my application for Tony Stark over at Para. Considering bringing in Bridge since I'm getting the hang of him and hes becoming one of my main muses and oh so fun to play.
Oh and I set up my rp journal over at ![[info]](http://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) dekka_rps isn't it pretty? My muses are up for playtime with anybody over there for random AU's and what have you. It's basically "rp for the hell of it." *nods* anyway, that's all. I'm dead fucking tired...
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[15 Jun 2008|01:37am] |
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I've been so ungodly bored it isn't even funny. So rp's..I have a million stories going on, but nobodies around this weekend. *weep* And my guess is, they're all going to appear during the week while I've got shit to do because thats just how it works. ._.; I HAS A SKY. Yes that required caps. I HAS A SKY AND BRIDGE NAO. Bridge is elated. Sadly I've had to work all weekend, so Bridge only got to play with Sky-sky once. But the point is I HAS ONE. Who's on. And replies! And oh snap. Yeah..but other than that..I've got so much bloody pent up rp energy and nobody to play with right now. TAT;;. oh. I still have an Andros post over at Aiode I suppose. lkjasdhf I don't know.
...want something to do. D= *flail*
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[11 Jun 2008|03:50am] |
OKAY..what the hell even was this..CalculatedSalmon: Hi.
CrystallicYami: hello? o.o;
CalculatedSalmon: hello
Auto response from CrystallicYami: [kat] tell me I didn't fry the quantum enchancer!
[kat] tell me I didn't fry the quantum enchancer!
[Doggie]....kat fried the quantum enhancer.
CrystallicYami: who's this?
CalculatedSalmon: am... am i supposed to know this?
CrystallicYami: uhm...who're you? to be more specific o.o;
CalculatedSalmon: you were just talking to me!
CrystallicYami: ....was I?
CalculatedSalmon: that deathly salmon dude
CalculatedSalmon: even tho thats not my real sn
CrystallicYami: o.O;;...
CrystallicYami: are you sure I was talking to you?...cause yeah..this isn't mine either I'm rarely on this screen name...^^;
CalculatedSalmon: and yours isnt affine salmon
CalculatedSalmon: what time is it where you live?
CalculatedSalmon: this will help me solve this
CalculatedSalmon: the last person I was talkin to said it was 3am
CrystallicYami: uhm..I'm not affiliated with any sort of fish type people as far as I know. And indeed it is.
CalculatedSalmon: and this is your real screen name? affine salmon?
CalculatedSalmon: lol thats fine then... what does it say my screen name is?
CrystallicYami: no? o.o it says yours is calculatedsalmon
CrystallicYami: syrsly...who is this? XD
CalculatedSalmon: well this should be fun
CalculatedSalmon: what time is it there?
CalculatedSalmon: its 5am here
CalculatedSalmon: 5:17
CalculatedSalmon: lol well this just happened like 5 seconds ago to me and another guy
CalculatedSalmon: my sn is meotwister
CalculatedSalmon: not calculated salmon
CrystallicYami: ...o_O its pacific time here
CalculatedSalmon: someone is screwin with us...
CrystallicYami: hm...do you do rps at all?
CalculatedSalmon: 3:17?.. weird.. other dude was the same
CrystallicYami: cause maybe the person messing with us is from one of them.
CrystallicYami: whats my screen name say?
CalculatedSalmon: rps? role.. playing?...s?
CrystallicYami: okay...rules that out XD but yes.
CalculatedSalmon: affinesalmon
CrystallicYami: ....o.O I know no fish people...
CalculatedSalmon: see
CalculatedSalmon: thats the craziness of all this!
CrystallicYami: clearly the one playing with us likes fish way too much.
CrystallicYami: because yeah..so not a fish person, ew.
CalculatedSalmon: hehe, im not too fond of them either
Auto response from CrystallicYami: [kat] tell me I didn't fry the quantum enchancer!
[kat] tell me I didn't fry the quantum enchancer!
[Doggie]....kat fried the quantum enhancer.
CrystallicYami: im so confused...XD
CalculatedSalmon: haha
CrystallicYami: I don't know weather to be amused or..start being annoyed cause I just IM'ed the third salmon in our little confused backwards swimming fish school XD
CalculatedSalmon: are you sure you're not the same guy i started this whole thing with?
CalculatedSalmon: are you using iChat by any chance?
CrystallicYami: no?
CalculatedSalmon: lol which salmon is that?
CrystallicYami: and last time I checked I was a girl so I'm defiantly not your guy.
CalculatedSalmon: ;P oh sorry
CalculatedSalmon: can't really tell over the internet!
CrystallicYami: the affinesalmon the mystery fish in our equation you say my IM is reading as XD
CalculatedSalmon: lol cause i didnt change im windows and affineSalmon went from a guy to another person, you who is a girl.. so im like whhaaaaat
CrystallicYami: ...XD all you salmon people are confusing me.
CrystallicYami: how is it you even got my screen name to begin with? cause I assure you it's got nothing to do with fish or fish shaped creatures.
CalculatedSalmon: lol some stupid hack with aim I guess... it started to me with someone sending me an IM from ... AffineSalmon... and when i said 'hi? who is this?' they said.. 'hi? who are you?' and then I found out what we know
CrystallicYami: the weird thing is...XD I never use this name its always on but just floating here on away thats why I don't get who'd want to hack it, ooh shiny challenge lets hack the person always away who will probably never notice ;3
CalculatedSalmon: lol yeah i dont understand it either
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[05 Jun 2008|05:18pm] |
I decided to follow in the footsteps of my rp buddies and make a list of characters.
Power Rangers
     
Buffy
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
High School Musical 2
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[27 May 2008|08:51pm] |
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The world sucks. But I guess if it didn't we'd all fall off. This is my last summer at my "job" if you can call it that. I'm done waiting for positions to open and my boss to make the constant excuses that "nothings opened up." It's been two years, and just...damnit I'm done. I'm one of the oldest of the "kids" working there. If I have a shift I WILL be there and on time unlike most who just...don't show up half the time. I do all my own work nobody has to hold my hand. Still no promotion...I told him I can't live on what I'm making and so if nothing opens up by the end of the summer along with everyone else, I'm just done..I'm done waiting :/...
My only friends in California are moving away. I'm standing still and left behind with little consideration...so now I'm just sort of wishing I could live on a megaship and have constant repairs to make because then I could just have something worth involving myself in. Oh, and the most bestest part of my life right now?....my girlfriend is straight. That just makes me feel like a million bucks, but I guess I had to wonder about the distance between us. I found out on live journal that the boy she's been wanting (EVEN WHILE WE WERE TOGETHER APARENTLY...god why does this always happen?) has hooked up with her. So yeah we pretty much don't talk at all or role play now because I'm sick of all the bullshit. Thats okay, her characters were pretty tiring anyways. Always the same thing.
Icing on the cake, I fell asleep during the new jungle fury last night so now I have to wait till friday to see what happens on the replay.
only highlight : anime expo coming up, my friends are flying into see me so that makes me feel a bit loved at least. Going as Dekayellow Jasmine. Anyway, I'm done ranting for now..
Peace out.
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[21 May 2008|02:55am] |
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Pretty much had a melt down earlier in the day. ._. don't feel like talking about it, but if you notice silence or awkwardness..that seems to be my running theme for the day. Over use of emoticons, when don't I abuse them though for syrsly..and just..not knowing of what to say when typically I can ramble with the best of 'em. Hmm...supposed to be sleeping by orders of the zhane, <3 you. *hugs* but cannot...sleep doesn't want me to be healthy and not -exhausted apparently. so instead I shall be sitting here updating my games. Think I'm gonna dye my hair tomorrow...need a change. /random.
back to your regularly scheduled program. Oh yeah Friday: Rise of the Battlizer on toon disney...ranger marathon, yay.
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[12 May 2008|03:03pm] |
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So my Zhanes "brother" is the most awesomest person ever and I haven't even met her yet. Yes her. But she gave up the Andros journal so my muse would shut his cake hole and stop whinging about how Caseys' taking his place. D<...Yeah. YOU DON'T SEE ME WITH A CASEY JOURNAL NOW DO YOU. despite the fact I might make one soon anyway stfu Andros you're still my favorite. >=( DOCTOR TOMMY OLIVER DOES NOT APPROVE OF YOUR SHENANIGANS.
Anyway, fun filled fact time about me:
TIME OF DAY: night time after 10, its usually the only time I get to myself while everyones sleeping.
DAY OF THE WEEK: Monday, my work weekend ends.
SEASON: winter or fall.
BEVERAGE: soda.
FRUIT: cherries
SNACK: bread with pizza sauce
SHOW: Power rangers
CHARACTER Andros and Casey and Theo..
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